Contradicting!

These few days isn’t gd for me..
I dunno y my left eye lid kept twigging..
Boy told me its nth de..ask me dun tink so much..
My friend can even say i ate too much twiggies!
Haha..

Had a short sms-conversation with boy just now..
Sigh..
I dunno y the feeling is so strong..
But i knew i was contradicting myself..
At one hand GOOD, at the other BAD..
How am i gg to live wid any decision i made?
Just feel tt when he’s out wid his friends, he like got no limits..
Dun even know who’s at home or maybe who he is or wad he supposed to do..
For me, to prevent quarrels, i always ‘forced’ myself do things i dun like..
Eg dun like him smoke still buy cigar for him!
Dun like him go drink still ask him enjoy himself!

Arghhhzzzzz!

Just hate tt strong feeling which i cant describe! @#$%^&*!!!

Dumb!

I just cant figure out how to make use of wordpress features to beautify my blog.
Sigh tried so many times yet unsuccessful..

Anyway im so un-proud to announce tt i had already rotted at home for almost 2++ months..
*clap clap*
Mr Bryan Phua has also kept asking me when am i finding a job..
Oh my reply to him or rather to all is : I hope i know the answer too.. =)

Well..Went malacca last thurs for my grandpa’s praying session..
Time flies..
My grandpa had already left us for ard 3 years..
And i miss him dearly..
If he was to be here now, I think he will be the happiest grandpa in the world..
With so many grandchildren and great grandchildren..More coming..

This coming week i will be leaving for malacca again for my cousin’s wedding..
Following next week will be there again for chinese new year…
Yippeee.! Fun fun fun!

Been practising one love duet song to perform during my cousin’s wedding..
I knew my auntie and uncle sure sabotage me on stage..So i better get prepared..
Stressss!! With so many pairs of eyes looking at u, i can predict tt i sure malu..
Somemore all familiar ppl..all relatives.. Oh my..

Good luck to me =)

Happy Birthday!

Happy BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!

Hehex..

Thanks eveyone for all the wishes, surprises and presents!

Hugs!

Merry Merry Christmas to all~

Merry merry christmas to all dearies…
Thou its abit late by an hr, but its ok~
Hehex..

Hmm..had a ‘clean’ christmas party ytd wid my boy and his friends..
Went V8 to have dinner, thereafter proceed to Settlers’ cafe at SMU for some mind games, then to Clarke Quay for some drinking and lastly to Yishun 848 for breakfast..
Definitely a worthwhile celebration..

Sigh..Suddenly recalled and be reminded of tt thing again..
I guess its my fault..
Being so bored to the extend tt i have to search for stuffs to see, i went to read smth i shouldn’t read..
Not even type the letters in the search box and press ENTER…
Haizz…Thou there isn’t much that was mentioned..
A little info was written..
Thou i know what is it already..but i suddenly feel so so so weird..
Like suddenly got reminded of tt thing again..
Sigh i know it supposed to be a happy day for us..especially after 25dec2008..
But i just felt so weird..
That’s all..

Guess i shall not dwell in it again..
But once again..
It is easier said than done.

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ROTTING or rather ROTTEN!

I have been procrastinating again..
From the day my exams ended, I did nothing meaningful..
Have been rotting @ home most of the time..
Sigh..How come?!!!
Anyway next tuesday i will be doing some volunteer work..
Helping those disadvantage children to celebrate Xmas..
Hehex..Looking forward to it!!!

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I simply don’t understand..
Why a simple gesture of care and concern would make you sound so frustrated?
I started to find myself not understanding you more and more..
When in need, im always the 1st one..
When not in need, i dunno which queue no. is my turn..
-=- P.R.O.C.R.A.S.T.I.N.G -=-

OFFICIALLY!!!

HoHoHo..

I have officially graduated from NUS!!!
Haha..
I know many people is envying me..
People who are still in their 1st ir 2nd year..
People who are still having papers..
Haha…
My brother was like..wa girl, u so gd lor..dun need study le..
Kaox..
For goodness sake, i have studied for soooo many years CONTINUOUSLY..
Of cos now everything paid off la..
Haha..
For him, he juz ended his FIRST semester..
So i guess there’s still more to go for him..

For me i dun really feel tt happy, dunno y leh..
Juz a bit relieved tt everything’s over..
Mayb i haven got a job..tts y..
My parents are even happier than me..
Family Photo shooting was even booked in dec!
Haha..

HoHoHO~~~

Christmas is coming..
Was discussing wid him whr shld we go..
Last yr Christmas was HORRIBLE+TERRIBLE!
All thanks to him..
Thus this year i hope its smth nice!

Daddy’s birthday tomorrow..
Happy Birthday to u my beloved daddy!!!

its so hard..

Its so hard to make up my mind..
Last few days was a turning point for us..
I guess its the worst period that we ever faced..
Without meeting for 4 days straight..
I am kinda different fr last time too..
I don’t rush for an answer..
I don’t msg him as often..
I dunno y..
I felt so empty in me..
We started to exchange msges yesterday..
I cant get anything or clues out of those msges he sent me..
I am so tired..
I wish i could lay down forever, without having to worry about anything..
I thought so much, so much that i always cant control myself..
Looking at the pics, the msges, the previous archives, the letters, the everything..
I couldn’t stop by asking myself..
What actually went wrong?
What actually end both of us up into this state?
What actually cause all those unnecessary quarrels?
What actually got in between us so much that we seems to drift apart?
Most importantly, what actually breaks our communication down?

These are several questions which are so hard to find the answers..
Perhaps there’s just no answer..
As simple, does love still exist?