Hi all!!!
Its been such a long time since I last blog..
Anyway How’s everyone? I hope you guys wun get shocked when you saw my this entry..
Haha..Dun need to keep refreshing ya..
Its indeed me!!!
I knew it has been a long time since I blog..
Almost forgot the fact that I do have an existing blog..Haha..
Till I chatted with my colleague then I felt, hmm I should update my entries,else this blog will get rotten!
Well..work has been considered ‘alright’ so far..
Been very very busy gradually as days past…
Workload more n more..*Sigh*
Learnt quite alot in this job..perhaps it was my 1st one..
Thus still getting the hang of it…
Meetings Meetings Meetings almost everyday. =(
Sometimes I felt why am I doing so much?
Well……………… *shake head*
Other than work, family is good..
Very supportive..especially my daddy who kept asking how’s my work..
I simply love him,my daddy for all his advice and support, my mummy too for her nice home cooked food and tonic soup and beverage for my late nights and also my brother who came to fetch me at times..
I LOVE THEM ALL!!! =)
What’s stressing me is r/s now..
Hadn’t been good this few days..Sigh..
I do not know what to say or how to say..
Just felt very lost and everything’s hanging..
Am I asking too much?
Am I being unfair?
Am I being too selfish?
These are the questions I kept asking myself..
He told me NO but yet he did things to anger me, to hurt me..
I dislike and hate this kind of feeling..
Same things kept happening..despite the reminders and promises he gave..
Its always the words but not the actions..
I broke down yesterday after so long..Guess its the limit..
I was so devastated when I communicate with him thru sms..
He said that I did not give him attention and concern, and that I always talk to my friends and colleagues abt work but not him, so he is trying to catch my attention and wants me to care for me..
OH MY! I did put in effort to care for him and wanna talk to him but did he give me the full chance?
Everytime when we are on the phone, he seems to be doing his stuffs, drifting away..
So you think I nv try?
I knew you are trying very hard on the other end too..
I knew it and appreciate it..
You are trying very hard to salvage everything..to ease the tension and make things better..
Everything is fine except that aspect I mentioned..
Thou guys might think its normal or common, but for my character I just feel that its a NO NO.
Sigh I just dunno how to say or handle this anymore..
I tried all means to communicate with you..
You once told me perhaps we hv communication breakdown, i think so too..
But i tried writing letters, emails, sms, face-to-face talk, phone calls but still like that..
GOD, I seek your power and might and guidance to light my way out..
Guide me through this darkest moments of my life..
I knew im always handling r/s problems wrongly..
That’s why I seriously need you to answer my prayers every night..
