OFFICIALLY!!!

HoHoHo..

I have officially graduated from NUS!!!
Haha..
I know many people is envying me..
People who are still in their 1st ir 2nd year..
People who are still having papers..
Haha…
My brother was like..wa girl, u so gd lor..dun need study le..
Kaox..
For goodness sake, i have studied for soooo many years CONTINUOUSLY..
Of cos now everything paid off la..
Haha..
For him, he juz ended his FIRST semester..
So i guess there’s still more to go for him..

For me i dun really feel tt happy, dunno y leh..
Juz a bit relieved tt everything’s over..
Mayb i haven got a job..tts y..
My parents are even happier than me..
Family Photo shooting was even booked in dec!
Haha..

HoHoHO~~~

Christmas is coming..
Was discussing wid him whr shld we go..
Last yr Christmas was HORRIBLE+TERRIBLE!
All thanks to him..
Thus this year i hope its smth nice!

Daddy’s birthday tomorrow..
Happy Birthday to u my beloved daddy!!!

its so hard..

Its so hard to make up my mind..
Last few days was a turning point for us..
I guess its the worst period that we ever faced..
Without meeting for 4 days straight..
I am kinda different fr last time too..
I don’t rush for an answer..
I don’t msg him as often..
I dunno y..
I felt so empty in me..
We started to exchange msges yesterday..
I cant get anything or clues out of those msges he sent me..
I am so tired..
I wish i could lay down forever, without having to worry about anything..
I thought so much, so much that i always cant control myself..
Looking at the pics, the msges, the previous archives, the letters, the everything..
I couldn’t stop by asking myself..
What actually went wrong?
What actually end both of us up into this state?
What actually cause all those unnecessary quarrels?
What actually got in between us so much that we seems to drift apart?
Most importantly, what actually breaks our communication down?

These are several questions which are so hard to find the answers..
Perhaps there’s just no answer..
As simple, does love still exist?

its never easy..

Its always a challenge for me to get things done the right way at the right time..
I can never fulfil that as my wish..
So many things waiting for me to be done..
Yet im lying here doing nth..
Procrastinating..

Sigh..
Is it a call or hint from GOD tt i shld let go of everything?
Ends them with just two words, FULL STOP?

Im so tired now after rushing on my reflection paper.
Thou it wasn’t anything amazing on the work i did,
Nonetheless, i still managed to have a clear mind n at least put in efforts to get it done..
There’s still so much theories to input..
But i doubt i can do it now..
Im too tired to think already..
Guess i got to delay everything till tmr, which is actually TODAY’s deadlines!!!
Gosh~

Silence in the moment..
I hope im doing the right thing..
Bless me.

After three good years…

After 3 good years, This is what I ended myself up in..
Im never successful in r/s..
Or shld i say i never know how to handle a r/s when it gets longer..
Previous one is like that, this one is also like that..
Im too tired to say or comment anything..
A slam on the door caused all this..
U said nth is wrong yet so many things are wrong..
We juz have a good talk on Thurs night..
I thought it ended up with a happy ending..
I thought things will be different..
I thought I can see at least some light shining..
I thought I saw hope..
I thought Im not gonna be worried again..
I thought I thought..
But its all the opposite..
One last msg is what I could do now..
Its really up to u to decide what u wan..

Last week was really hectic for me..
So much so tiring that I almost couldn’t cope..
But…
Finally i managed to survive thru the period..
I have officially graduated from NUS as undergrad under the academic calendar..
Nevertheless, I still have 1 more presentation, 1 reflection paper, 1 report & 1 exam..
Thats all for my school life i guess..

Busy+Sad+Stress+Sianz

My scary deadlines for the following days before i grad with tt piece of scroll..

7 Nov: Biz Policy Report
11 Nov: OB Report + OB Presentation
12 Nov: Asian Mrkt Exam 2
14 Nov: Biz Policy Individual Case + Biz Policy Presentation + Services Operation Presentation
18 Nov: Promotional Marketing presentation + OB reflection paper
21 Nov: Services Operation Report
26 Nov: Services Operation Exam

Looking at the above deadlines, i know im dead. Next week is a killer week for me!!! Once in my lifetime 3 presentations in a row!!! Damn..

Stress abt sch work still nvm. Still got to stress abt other things! haiz. It ain’t getting anywhere!

Juz realise smth..Happiness doesn’t last long but sadness do. Sad sia..

Will upload pics taken during sec sch gathering + Malacca trip soon!