Knock knock : Surprises~~

Surprises..Surprises..Surprises..

Finally its a moment of joy again!

Well..nth much to report on my daily ‘routine’ life..
Such boring me..

Went out on wednesday to Mustafa..
Wanted to buy his things but no avail..
He drank alot tt night, i knew it!
So kay kiang la..Was hoping tt he kena hangover the next day so i can niam him..
But he didn’t! Oh my..
He said alot of things to me tt night too..
I hope its not drunk words and he is serious..
Anyway the next day went for lunch wid him and after so i went home..
Thus went online to shop for his stuffs and finally ordered..
It came the next day! All thanks to my best frenz~ =)

Met him on thurs night after his swimming classes, went for Thomson prata..
He tot i got some surprise for him, but on tt night it wasn’t ready..
Thus i got none. And i tot he got none for me too..
Cos friday is our monthsary..
Thus, I headed down to his car with such a ’sianz’ mood, cos i tot he got nth..
But before we went for supper, he suddenly say he wanna go toilet..
And before tt he ‘threw’ me smth (which shocked me), gave me a peck, wished me Happy monthsary and phew off he goes!
Guess what…???

Ta da its this coach wristlet!!! Haha..my eyes were like brimming with JOY!

Haha..Kinda lost for words..Anyway I LOVE IT SOoo much..
But he’s kind of sad cos i got nth for him..
Its not nth, just tt his things are not yet ready~
After supper, he suddenly drove to Shell petrol station to buy parking coupons..
From there we saw his fav Dale bear, can see tt he liked it alot..
Intended to buy for him, but wanted to gave him a surprise..
Thus, have decided to buy myself the next day..

Next day went Bukit Timah tuition, after tt went to the 2 shell stations to check out the DALE bear..
Unfortunately they dun have..So sianz lor..
Went home, drove to Jalan Kayu, Yio Chu Kang, Seragoon Garden, Ang Mo Kio Shell station but still no avail!!!!!!!!!!!! Arghzzzzzzzzzzzzz….Angry + Pek Chek!
Then met Yuting to dog’s cafe..
Also with her mum and her dog..
My best fren miss this chance..Haha..
He kinda sad, regrets.. *Orbi la go F1* haha..
After chilling, fetch Yuting’s mum home and she accompanied me back to Thomson’s station to buy the DALE bear..*no choice but to go back same place*..
Got the bear at a more exp price lor..Ytd saw it at $9.90 but the price isn’t tt, the $9.90 one is Pooh bear, not DALE bear! DALE cost much more lor! but nvm..haha..
Den went back, he came to my hse and i cooked mee for him..
After that…….I presented my surprise for hiM!!!
Guess what is it?

Ta Da its the DALE bear with the perfume!

Pls don’t comment on the packaging and design, cos i got no time to wrap it up.
The moment i reached my hse car park, i heard a ‘zoom’ noise, turn around n saw his car alr..
Thus, i faster run home and prepare this thing..not much time..

He looked happy but also kinda expected i guess..haha..
Im isn’t good at hiding..
But after tt he’s too slpy tt he fell aslp very fast! Damn~
But nvm..hope he knows tt i took efforts to go sooo many stations just to buy the bear!

Everything ended up well..Hope it continues..
Anyway im gg back to study for my OB tests on tue le..
After tt gonna go for supper again..hahha…

Ciaoz!

Hot and Cold..

People has been asking me why why why!
Why this happens, why that happens?
I myself dun even know!
HOW PATHETIC!

Promises and compromising words always appear on the gd side.
But it never been shown in actions.
I dunno why.
And I hope to know why.
Im so tired.
All i want is to let it be simple.
But how come it always turn out so complicated.
I wish to know.
I really wish to know.
I tried all means and approach to handle it.
But it always seems so difficult.
It always seems that I failed to do.

Wad the hell has things go wrong?
When will all this stop?
Where can it be done?
Who should be responsible?
Which approach should we use?
How can it be resolved?

All the wad when where who which how comes into use.

Its so ironic that I myself dun even know!

@#!$%^&*!@#$%$%!@#$%

Should i or shouldn’t i?

Arghzz…
I juz cant get Asian Marketing notes right into my mind my brain!
Feeling so dejected now!!!
So sick of studying alr..
Wonder will it be of use next time not..
People has been telling me, don’t need to study la, u so clever..
Oh my..its definitely not true..Im so stressssssssss!

Well..spent a night with him ytd..
Forgotten abt out dinner..
Nothing much..Outcome wasn’t as good, not tt i expect..
Seriously, i got so many things to think now..
Came home this morning, tried studying yet can’t get anything into my brain.
PRACTICALLY anything. what i rmbr was the words “Lecture one”.
Cos i kept reading the same slide..
Wonder how m i gg to endure this wed tests..
Its 20% mind you! haiz..

So went to take a nap..Woke up have lunch tt mum has bought..
Suddenly dad came and tok to me..
Asked me if he has returned back safely and got anything happen to him not?
This makes me think again..
Haiz……

Everything seems to sound OK but it doesn’t look OK.
From ytd chat with him, I knew i got so much to do.
Yet im unsure if i can.
I might just fall apart again, who knows?
Each day im juz trying my best, but i don’t know when will all this ends.

Today’s mid autumn festival.
If such things nv happen, probably i will be happily playing candles, moon-sighting, moon-caking under the big round moon.

Sigh. Why???

All i need..

Motivation
.
Strength
.
Perseverance
.
Determination
.
Support
.
Direction
.
Power
.
Guts

Pls give me all.

its so hard..

Its so hard to express how i feel now..
He’s coming back tml..
Am i happy or confused?
Seriously..Im so afraid of facing him..
I dunno y..I felt problems are still there..
I don’t dare to face it..Or rather I don’t know how to face it..
I juz felt like escaping..Tts wad i usually do..
But i know sooner or later I got to face the reality..
Yes i truly misses him..But y am I so scare to see him?
Probably some truth might be out..
Probably things are still stagnant..
Probably im so worried about him and my family..
Probably things are not the same alr..
Probably things might also get betteR?
Haiz..
Wad kind of feeling is this?

I hate UNCERTAINIES!
I juz hope everything be solved fast.
Yet im so scare to face it.
S.I.G.H

Headache~

Experiencing major headache now!
Forced myself to finish up Biz policy Assignment 1..
Thanks Bea for her help..
I am feeling so bloody uncomfortable now!!!!
I don’t know how to express my thoughts in words now..
I juz feel so empty again..

Anyway he called..Juz finished talking to him..
Today he’s much better..But he sounds very tired cos he juz woke up..
I truly miss him..And he tells me he miss me too..
I juz can’t control myself again n break down..
I felt so lost when i heard his voice..
And my heart sank when he says he miss me too and will meet me after he got back..
He knew i got headache..Kept asking me to listen to him and rest early..
I juz hope everything is fine..

Celebrated Yuting’s bday ytd..
Gave her 2 surprises, cake and Amelin’s appearance..
She’s so touched till she cried..
Im touched too..Tt she actually dropped tears cos of me..
Haha..
Was so down ytd night..
Gonna thanks my friends who are there for me, looking after me..
Anyway i hope she enjoyed her bday..

Emptiness

Feeling so empty now..
Juz finished Asian Market seminar an hr ago..
But still in sch, having 4 hrs break, DAMN!
Cos after tt got project meeting..Sigh tis timing can die!

These few days are a challenge to me..
Felt so empty almost everyday when i woke up..
The feeling is undescrible, actionless and *dunno wad to do*..
Things ain’t getting fine for us..
Thou he always say der’s nth wrong, but to me i knew der’s smth wrong..
Mayb its different gender perspectives or thinking..
I dunno..
And i seriously wish to find out..
But der’s juz no way i can..
Tried many ways in going into deep talks..
But it always ended up wid nth..
Sigh..
He’s in Krabi now, probably enjoying himself all e way..
While im in sch, ‘indulging’ with tons and loads of sch work and problems..
But i dun blame him, cos i left him alone here when i went to Sydney..
Haiz..
I cant figure out why he did that..
Yes im heartbroken, but i dunno y im ok after a while..
I seriously dunno y..Mayb too numb alr..
But thinking back it hurts me too..
I juz dun understand why why why!

Judging e way we handle this thing, sometimes gd n bad..
Makes me real troubled now..
It seems like a vicious cycle, i dunno..
Hopefully its not, i dunno too..

Tell me wad should i do then?
*CONFUSED*

Things got so bad..

Haiz..I didnt noe things will get so bad..
Its not what i expected..
Its not what i wish..
Its not what i want..

Juz can’t find any way to express how i feels now..
I juz knew tt things wun be e same again..
I am oso affected, not only you..
At 1st i dun even noe there’s msges circulating btwn both you n my bro..
Y am i always being mistaken?
There’s way too much misunderstandings now..
How m i able to solve them??

This whole crazy situation is juz a small matter..
But i dunno y it turns out to be so big..
I dun wan it either..
I dun feel gd either..

Y would i want to invite trouble to myself and tell my parents?
Y would i want to jeopadize everything?
Y would i want to cause all the hoo-ha gg on?
Y would i want to make myself so miserable?
Y would i want to end myself locking in e room,w/o having any appetite?

Think abt it. Everything is like a nightmare.
Im ain’t happy at all again.

My room..

Oh yah forgot to attach pics =)

Parent’s room~

My strippy room~

I painted this myself~ oh my can’t believe it!

Life’s a routine..

HI EVERYONE!

These few days are quite busy and routine for me..Went school, lessons, projects, meetings, eat, work, sleep. Nothing very happening..Juz some updates..

Had my room painted..
Very nice! haha tts wad i tink..
Chose the colors and patterns myself..
Helped mum to design her room too..
Then I painted my altar table myself..
Whooo great achievement! I can be painter le..
But my room and my whole house not painted by me..
I only designed my parent’s room..

Hmm..went COMEX too..Damn crowded..Was feeling so giddy while walking..Thus din manged to scout for many things..Juz bought cartridges..actually wanted to buy LCD TV, but no difference..So forgo the idea..

After tt went to Singapore Flyer with MR Bryan! Got ourselves 2 complementary tickets..haha..so lucky lor..actually his ticket is only $10 cos of his participation in NDP. Then he called the office they say 31st August expired but when we wanna buy the tickets the lady say alr expired..Den so funny..the lady says: “So sir, our company will give u 2 complementary tickets to apologize for our mistakes, hope you enjoy the flight”.. HAHAHAHA..when the lady told us, she like stumbling while looking at Bryan..So funny..like so stress talking to him and like dare not look at him..Aiya he’s young gals killer and also auntie killer la..

The flight not really nice..only the scenery..i mean the experience is so so only..Well at least i tried tt before..Also bought a picture from them and it costs $15 lor..haha..

Anyway time to go back school tml again..haiz..sianz..

Same routine again!